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Do you know the feeling that you terribly want to do something and at the same time you are terrified by it? This is called ‘growing’ I guess. Or unlocking your potential. It’s wonderful once you have taken this first step out of the comfort zone. This article is my first step; it’s my coming out as a gifted adult. Meet Patty Muffins.

Meet Patty Muffins

It has been a rough as well as fascinating journey since I stumbled over the concept of ‘giftedness’ in the book The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine Aron end of 2015 (she writes in one chapter about her experiences in a programme for gifted students).

After having read quite a few articles and several books from sources in German, French and English and after pondering a while I came to the conclusion that I could be ‘gifted’ or ‘gifted and talented’ as they say in the UK.

In other words, I discovered at the age of 45 that I had been a kind of ‘ugly duckling’. I was starting to be figuring out eventually why I had been finding myself ‘somehow weird’ and ‘not fitting in’ most of my life.

I also realised to what extent I had mastered the art of camouflage. My skills as a chameleon have not been detected by many.

That was the shocking part.

On the good side, it started to dawn on me at the same time that most of my close friends (scattered all over the world) were ‘like this’, too.

An abstract concept like ‘giftedness’ manifests itself in many rather different unique ways…

 

The thing about the ‘fuss’

It took me quite some time to get here, the moment when I press ‘publish’ of this article. Some close people asked me, “why are you making such a fuss about it?” They said, “by now people got it that you work with Bright Women.”

You’ll see more sentences in italic further down – and maybe they’ll speak to you in a way I don’t have to explain much more…

I have several versions of this ‘coming out’ article on my computer. Because it’s one thing to say I work with people that are ‘extra intelligent’ and it’s another thing to say, “hey, I’m one of them.”

(After all, I’m Swiss, we’re modest, hardworking, high quality seeking compromisers who respect minorities – standing out is NOT something that is valued or encouraged!)

Quote Baruch

When the seed of doubt was planted I starting to do some research around the concept of ‘giftedness’… I know now that, typically, some research translates (not for all but for many of ‘us’) as becoming rather obsessed about a topic and reading and thinking around it wide and deep with ‘single-minded enthusiasm’ which also helped me to understand that this is ‘normal’ for people like me and that I don’t have to be ashamed of it.

It took me 10 months of back-and-forth plus coaching by my mastermind buddies until I did an IQ testing (the psychologist I chose used to do this for Mensa. She preferred to call it “exploring your cognitive and learning capacities and preferences” or something alike).

 

OK, you’re ‘gifted’, now what?

After I got this number – which answered one question (namely my IQ according to this test is above 130 which is the ‘official’ mark to be called ‘gifted‘, ‘surdouée‘ ou ‘hochbegabt‘) and raised many others at the same time – I went from feeling brave to rationalizing why it was not worth to talk about it publicly and back again (many times). I’ll talk about the very bewildering experience of the testing (WAIS IV for adults) another time.

I meandered from getting clear to procrastinating, hesitating, going one step forth and two steps back while keeping on looking back at my life with a new pair of goggles.

When my business mentor first told me, “just write about your experiences; share what you discovered and how it feels” I knew she was right. Great idea! If I simply shared about my deep inner experiences (no one can guess) other ‘women like us’ could find me because they would recognize themselves (in the unspeakable)…

…AND I stopped writing.

During this time, I learned things that completely puzzled me (and some still do today). For example:

 

Some common traits of people with a High IQ

  • The way they process information and stimuli of all kinds – mental, emotional and sensorial – is more intensive and more complex (aha)
  • They think more and more thoroughly than most people (aha!)
  • They have an extraordinary sense of justice and intolerance of unfairness (really?)
  • They have a tendency to be very critical (aka they are often their own worst critic), they question authorities and have rather high expectations (I can’t remember how many times I have been reminded of the latter by friends, superiors and colleagues)
  • They have a playful attitude and a childlike sense of wonder (sure!)

Talking about reproaches – have you ever been told that…

  • You’re complicated and think too much?
  • You shouldn’t take everything so much at heart?
  • You are skipping from one interest and project to another (are too scattered)?
  • You are relating topics that REALLY have nothing to do with one another?

Note: we are talking about correlations!

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In case this article puzzles you, great! Take this Quiz.

 

What about Gifted Girls?

During my research I learned that gifted girls seem to have this kind of qualities in common:

  • Autonomous thinking at an early age
  • Readiness of mind
  • Vivid imagination (some invent their imaginary friends! It makes them feel less alone.)
  • Having friends who are several years or much older
  • During puberty no interest in topics ‘typical for teenage girls’

 

On superpowers and bliss

Book Enjoying the GiftIn January 2017 I finished the amazing book Enjoying the Gift of Being Uncommon: Extra Intelligent, Intense, and Effective by Willem Kuipers. I had come across him and his website a year earlier and knew immediately that I would reach out to him one day. I hired him as my coach because I needed to understand thoroughly how my Extra Intensity showed and how this is a decisive factor making the life for me difficult – again and again – as well as marvellous – again and again.

In one session he said something like, “one of your special strengths is your playful creativity”.

This hit me like a thunderbolt.

You must know, I have been using a scientific tool called the VIA Character Strengths to empower my clients. Creativity per se is not one of my Signature Strengths. We were talking about applied ‘childlike playfulness’ with a sense of wonder and joy of exploration that leads to innovation.

Bliss! And then…

 

Resistance

Why was I scared to death to share publicly what I had found out?

(Now, if the lists above have stirred up something inside you please use your heightened empathy to get why I am “making a fuss about and dramatize a trivial thing”.)

The answer is simple: memories!

Many, hurtful, painful, disturbing and buried memories. (More about this in another article.)

If you, too, have felt like an alien or a minority of one many times in your life – AND if you have successfully managed to hide this – you’ll get me.

And I repeat: because it’s one thing to talk about bright people, about bright clients, about their struggles and how you can support them. It’s a whole other story to step up and say, “hey, I’m bright”.

Read here what motivated me to overcome what Steven Pressfield calls ‘Resistance’ in his fabulous book The War of Art.

 

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Could you be gifted? Click on the pic to take the Quiz.

 

Hey, I’m a tall poppy

Saying ‘bright’ is a great way to avoid the g-word.

Book The Gifted AdultAnd what I can say for sure today: there is soooooo much misunderstanding and there are so many stereotypes and prejudices around the concept of ‘giftedness’.

While – excuse my tendency to exaggerate and simplify – Americans seem to be slightly obsessed with standing out and ‘making it to the top’, European cultures still rather focus on ‘equal access and chances’ and it’s really not wise to be a wild poppy in a field of daisies.

Have you been asked before what Mary-Elaine Jacobsen, author of The Gifted Adult, calls criticism number one: “who do you think you are?

Let’s talk about criticisms in another blog post. I prefer to focus on my solution: I invented an alter ego.

I’ll tell you the story about how I got there to meet my imaginary friend Patty Muffins another time if I may. Also what she and her elder cousin Mary Poppins have in common, where they are different and what makes them both (very) human.

For now, I’d like to introduce you to Patty. She’s a bit less serious and concerned about almost everything than me. She can talk about things that are too difficult for me to say aloud on the wide world of the internet – at least for now!

 

Meet Patty Muffins

Patty Muffins and I shall be singing and writing hand in hand from now on this blog. Her motto is, “Ponder less and play more.” Patty will write more about how it concretely looks and feels like to be ‘Living with Intensity.

Book Living with intensityI (Patricia) will review the latter and the other Brilliant Books mentioned in this article and write blog posts revealing strategies and tips on how to thrive rather than survive as a Highly Sensitive Person and Gifted Adult.

In my upcoming interview series Sense & Sensitivity, I’ll discuss with other bright women (and men) how learning about their giftedness changed their lives. They’ll share with you how they found meaning, love and joy in a world that easily overwhelms us.

I’m glad to have Patty next to me while exploring further the adventures, adversities and lessons learned of gifted & talented adults. She’s a fabulous friend on my journey while understanding better how having a bright mind impacts on my nervous system and body. And vice-versa.

We’re both very fond of Mary Poppins (and Pippi Longstocking) who have both been role models for us. More about this soon.

The good news: you must keep in mind is that this extra intensity and hyper perceptivity applies as well to the joy, bliss and richness of textures, flavours, emotions or encounters with other beings and nature you may experience.

Do you want to find out if you are a Bright Woman? Take the HSP Quiz.

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Patricia Mauerhofer

Teacher, Writer, Coach at Coaching & Mentoring
Patricia Mauerhofer is a Swiss teacher, writer and coach. She uses her fast-paced brain, big heart and intuition to empower highly sensitive and gifted women like you to live a brilliant life.

Combining professional experiences in communication, project management and public health with scientific research around mind-body wellbeing, effective time management, goal achievement and happiness she supports you to harness your sensitivities and play to your strengths.

Working with her allows you to complete your mission and to have time for the things and people that matter most.
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